Mask

I know I deserve better, I really should expect better but I dont want anyone else. She is the one I envisioned potentially spending the rest of my life with. We spoke of future plans and children and now all of a sudden everything is over.

Its like the entire time I meant nothing. It meant nothing for me to meet her parents, the countless miles flying hours on certain weekends to see each other meant nothing and the years of friendship and speaking of never becoming anything more than friends due to the fear of losing each other meant nothing as well.

 Now I sit here wearing a mask to hide the pain I feel inside. I wear a mask to avoid the questions. I wear a mask so I dont have to hear the lectures from people that will never understand. 

Yes .. I wear the Mask!!!

Man

So I don't talk about you anymore
And they say things will be better than before
So I live another day , hoping they are right
But now , I lie awake , in this cold November night

I think about you and I believe
that when it's time for me to leave
And the sounds of life are defeated by a silent grace
I , my friend , will want to see your face

You trusted me without a why
And I said I am your shade when the sun is high
You just smiled and did not doubt
My false promises kept the reality out


But when the wolves arrived , you saw me depart
And now , the shards of those promises bleed my heart
and When the lady called life loosens her embrace
I , my friend , will want to see your face

Do you hate me now , I do not know
Do you regret knowing a man so shallow
Does it disgust you to remember my voice
Will you live it again , if given a choice

I think you wont , And I see the reason
But I still wish , though guilty of treason
And when the glow of a setting sun fills the space
I , my friend , will want to see your face

You dont let go of your dreams
For a whisper of love can drown all the screams
I know that to talk of love , I have no right
But sometimes you see something only when it is out of sight

So wherever you are , give love another chance
Let it fill your heart , do it's divine dance
As for me ..when the angels of death carry me to a darker place
I , my friend , will want to see your face!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!